laurenrocks's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- let's take on the song i thought that applying to uta would be the hardest and most emotionally draining part of the process. but now i realize that the hardest part would be finding the fucking funds to actually PAY the school. i applied for private loans. about 15 of them. all rejected me within 12 hours. i cried. i called mark and left a pathetically sobbing message. then i called UTA's financial aid office. and now i'm relieved. all i have to do is fill out a fafsa form (which i'm doing online) and submit it, and the school will give me a loan. they don't do a credit check or anything. they lend money based solely on me being a student there. it may not pay for everything, but i do have a job so i can set up a payment plan and then start saving up money to cover whatever the loan doesn't pay for. i'll be fine. i'm going up there on friday to get some more information. and, to see my friends. they usually congregate and have a party on friday nights, so i'm hoping this friday will be no exception. i want to drink and see my friends and introduce them to mark. he has to close on friday at work, but i know he'll want to hang out with me. he told me so. i can feel a lot of tension in my neck. i need a goddamn massage. maybe i should start crying again. crying feels good. i need a shower. that will make me feel better. i hope ashley's working tonight. working with her makes time fly by faster and work is more fun when you're with your friends. i told mark that i wish i saw him more. he told me that i should get a job at his store because he's there all the time. *considering it... but not really* so yeah. shower time. and, i have that britney song "me against the music" in my head. when the video comes on tv, i don't turn the channel. scared? me too. 3:02 p.m. - 11.17.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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