laurenrocks's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fix0r3d oh, and the guestbook form is fixed. you're welcome, kim. 2:53 a.m. - 11.16.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- this air is best you share with me thank you, andy warhol, for inspiring my new layout. for those of you who suck, the fella on the left is mick jagger. my date tonight with mark was awesome. we talked a lot about us again, and decided that we should date. as in, we're only going to date each other, but we won't be seeing each other all the time like serious couples do. our work schedules really don't allow us to do that anyway. and it's better this way until i get my ass back to arlington in january. being in a serious relationship seems to work easier if there isn't so much driving involved. i'm hoping that he'll decide to go to UTA in the spring too so that he can get an apartment and we can be closer to each other. besides, he needs a more stable residence than sleeping at whoever's apartment or house he decides to go to for the night. i wish he could stay with me. he told me that his mother would be going out of town soon and that we can sleep over at her house. i've only spent the night with mark once. i want that to change soon. but i will rush nothing this time. i promise. i met him at my apartment in arlington and we went to the bookstore and browsed. he reads a lot and i would really like to get back into it too. he recommended some things and i bought please kill me, which is a history of punk. mark has read it several times and he carries it with him. it somehow opened his eyes. i want to open mine too. we then went to this porno shop and browsed the titles. we both got a little turned on during that activity.... so we made out a little in the parking lot. kissing him is like... whoa. fucking whoa. THEN we drove into downtown ft. worth and ate at uno. tastiest fucking pizza EVER. it was awesome sitting across from him, watching him eat, looking at me with those beautiful eyes. i will never get bored of the way he looks at me. we drove back to my apartment and i was really fidgety on the drive back. he asked why. i told him it was because i really wanted to have sex with him. i wanted to feel him again. he was up for it, of course. so we had amazing sex in my apartment on the floor (luckily i had a blanket in my car that we used to lay on). i came so hard and easily; mark does something to me, brings something out in me, that i never knew existed. or, that i forgot i had until tonight. afterwards we laid there with his head on my chest and my arms wrapped around him. letting go was hard to do. i could stay like that forever and so could he. he said that leaving me was the hardest thing for him, even if he knew he would see me again soon. i told him that it was okay because on our next day off from work, we'll see each other. we will call each other and we will make time to be together. it's going to work out beautifully this time. i just know it will. and now i must go eat my leftover pizza from uno because that shit is GOOD. 2:20 a.m. - 11.16.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fruit is happy yeah, uh, this layout blows. i feel happy and this layout, although bright, doesn't scream HAPPY at me. i should have pictures of fruit in my layout. fruit is happy. so is sex. speaking of which.... i think i pulled a muscle in my ass tonight. more on that later. first, a new layout. 12:42 a.m. - 11.16.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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