laurenrocks's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- too short a thing brian just broke up with me. as soon as it happened, heather and kevin both IM'd me. and casey called. they are all worrying that they'll never see me again. oh well. brian made that decision. i think i may have egged him on and convinced him to break up with me so that i wouldn't have to break up with him. at least, i did this subconciously. not surprisingly, i feel fine. it hurt as soon as he said "what i'm saying is 'goodbye'." and i hung up on him and felt a twinge in my chest. he said that he couldn't handle my depression and that i was being too needy and clingy and he didn't want anything like that right now. which is bullshit. but whatever. i won't take him back. but you already knew that. and i e-mailed mark: "call me." i figure he'd like to know, that's all. seriously, i feel fine. now i'm going to go write a couple of hot checks. that always boosts my spirits. 3:10 p.m. - 11.11.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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