laurenrocks's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- optimistic, aren't we? brian spent the night last night, and when my dad woke up this morning (he had the day off unfortunately) he knocked on my door and told me that brian should probably go home. we were in the middle of having sex on my bedroom floor when this happened. one word- shrinkage. my dad told me that he didn't care so much about it and that it was elizabeth's rule. he said that she doesn't want to punish me so she makes my dad do it. this makes him the go-between between his wife and his daughter. hopefully she didn't notice brian's explorer outside this morning. if she did, hopefully she'll believe my "we fell asleep while watching a movie" story and just take away my internet privileges or something. either way, i'll be spending all weekend NOT at home, so i won't have to be around her if she is mad at me for breaking her archaic rules. OH!! my apartment complex called (well, the building itself didn't call me, but one of the people that works there did) and apparently since i submitted my 60-day non-renewal notice less than 60 days before my lease is up, i now have to pay the full amount for november ($436) and then i have to pay the prorated amount for december until the 20th ($424). mom is going to be pissed. i'm pissed too. this is just more money that i have to flush down the shitter. and since i don't have this kind of money, i'll have to borrow it from my mom, who assures me that i WILL pay it back in a timely manner OR ELSE. would you like more math on how broke i am?!?? fuck it. i'm just pissed. i need to get student loans to pay off all this shit. in fact, i think that's what i'll do. my step-sister got some loans from private lenders and she's going to give me the web address so i can get some loans too. i don't want to go through fasfa or whatever. they'll just tell me that my parents make too much money and that i don't qualify for anything. because they're jerks. not my parents, the fasfa people. i'm hoping to get an appointment with an admissions counselor tomorrow so i can discuss applying with someone and get some feedback and get a plan so i'm not doing shit i don't need to do, and that i don't forget to do something that i need to do. make sense?? of course it does. things are happening, and i'm happy about it. in three months i'll be going to UTA. *i hope* 12:05 p.m. - 10.23.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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