laurenrocks's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my own worst enemy i am about to take AND fail a physics test. kelly is coming over today, but i have to write my government paper that was due two weeks ago, and i picked up some extra hours this week so i have to go into work tonight too. i also need to start reading/studying for thursday's wes/civ test. i need to make a solid A this time since i made an 81% on the first test and i want to at least TRY for an A in the class. i just didn't give myself enough time to study for the last test. now i know better. i hate entries about school. honestly. i was on the phone with brian last night just whining and throwing myself a goddamn pity party because of the whole GED situation, and how i felt stupid and stuck in a rut and blah blah blah. he did the right thing by just letting me bitch and whine. he's an excellent listener. he then told me that i was smart and talented and that i should be optimistic because UTA would be stupid to not accept me. he said he'd do whatever he could to help me. i think he loves me. so i have to order a duplicate of my GED, which is kind of a step backwards in the application process, but a necessary step nonetheless. it makes me feel somewhat defeated already. i give up easily. i always have. i am faced with an obstacle and so i give up rather than attempt to overcome it. it's an unhealthy pattern that needs to end. right. now. i can succeed. the only obstacle is me. oh, the irony. 10:51 a.m. - 10.20.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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